Release it and go onto the next feeling….
truth.. I loved Frozen. I bought the soundtrack and I played the shit out of it (in my car, by myself, windows down, singing out loud, hitting every-other-note). The thought and idea of “let it go” just seems so right… but is it? I’ve let my brain and pen wonder around a bit on this topic. "let it go” (and I'm going to put it in quotes because right now.. i don’t think i want it to be something I'm saying) to me has a connotation of so many questions, remarks.. like it’s not just 3 little words. it’s a slew of judgment, innuendos, what we wish we could be, could feel, and a shit-ton of shoulds….
Exactly how does one “let it go”? and what exactly are we talking about?
what hill are you willing to die on? is more appropriate for my examination of “let it go” at this point. Even Elsa was literally saying that she wanted to forget her past, walk away from it, not love, not feel… but instead the saying has been morphed into this thing that is good, a blessing somehow, something to aspire to…. I’m not buying it..
We humans are supposed to feel, we are to have a past, we hopefully are able to learn from mistakes, fix them, and then share the mistakes with others. At some point “letting it go” has been turned into a mantra to skip one or all of these steps. To be somehow inhuman. Let’s go back to that hill…. I choose a different hill everyday to die on, sometimes there are several (1,438) hills daily. There is anger, there is fear, there is joy and hopefulness. They are all hills, they all take work. A better use of my time would be to release the anxiety about “letting it go” and just go onto the next feeling. It’s there.. just waiting for me to feel. Why push it down, away, not experience whatever it is… Let’s experience it, understand it, recognize it, and then have compassion for ourselves and those around us that so desperately need to be heard.
Being in the moment no longer is just “let it go” because that statement has baggage. It's an attachment to an outcome, what I think is supposed to happen, how I am supposed to feel, what I'm supposed to experience. That is all bullshit. It's all lies and someone else’s truth. News flash.. I do not find happiness with outside mountaintop yoga and I certainly am not going to find happiness with giving up all my power to an idea that can allow me to grow (however the light and the dark mix and match).
Now the hill…...