Learn to let others be there for us

Its not a given.. I wish it was. letting someone else be there for me has all this gross baggage attached… and then there is the whole.. I dont know what iI really want so how could i ever let anyone “be there” for me.. because its a shitshow most of the time. But its my shitshow.. and letting others (all the relationships.. ALL the relationships) are a back and forth.. not all are healthy (honesty in this space only please, i’m so tired of lying). most are unhealthy.. but we try, learn, teach, do it again. then hurt, love, try, read, try again.. you get the point.. it’s all messy. but there comes that one day that we are really gonna need someone.. and if we are not in the habit of letting folks in, really allowing the doors to open and let the air in just as much as we are letting the air out… then there will be no help. and that is the truth. I do not want to walk this road alone. do you?