Its been a while

so many things have gone right and so many so wrong. Is there a middle ground. That is what I seek, although do not always want.

How is that even possible? What I like the pain? I like the desperation? I like the tears, the hurt, the anger, the highs that come with a red-faced wild-eyed girl?

Yes..

Somedays you bet I do. The nervous system is a drug.

I’ve been relegated to my couch for days now.. I’ve watched the internet, looked up rocks and crystals, sought God, been to meetings, hung out with friend on Zoom. Made first run meditations videos (that all borderline suck.. but have a purpose).

Do I really have to have learned something from this tether? Can’t it just be for a for a few moments……. where too little and too much are just pushed aside and just being is enough.

please…..